If you had met me 4 years ago, you wouldn’t have thought I was the same person. I was down, out, disconnected, numbed out, deeply depressed, and honestly ready to give up on life completely.
Everything felt like a struggle. Getting out of bed was as struggle. Finding and keeping a job was a struggle. Having a healthy relationship with my husband was a struggle. Living life was a struggle. I had hit a wall. I could no longer pretend that life was good, when I felt completely void of any sensation inside.
It wasn’t until I found myself sitting on a beach at a 5 star hotel in southern Turkey with my husband on one side, my wonderful parents on the other, and the sea in front of me did I realize that something was completely amiss. I felt nothing in that moment. No joy, no pain, nothing. Nothing seemed to be registeing, it was as if I was dead inside. When the realization hit that I was in my early thirties, and had already felt that life had completely passed me by, so much that I felt it was over, I felt a sinking in my stomach. This can’t be it! Are you fucking kidding me?
“I created a new baseline for happiness.”
I had come to a very clear crossroads. Either I was going to do nothing, and keep living a life void of feeling, emotion, and deadness, or I was going to choose life. It was that simple. There was nothing in between. As I looked at all the beauty around me, I could hear a little voice say, I choose life. The choice had been made, there was no looking back.
Cut to four years later I’ve gone from a shutdown, tuned off mess, into a sensual, vibrant, full of life, pleasure filled woman. Fuck yes! It wasn’t easy, and it didn’t happen overnight. The woman that stands before you in that picture committed herself to a new way of being, a new way of living, and a new way of loving. Some of the ideas I’ve adopted in my life once felt whacky, ridiculous, and so far fetched, but I was willing to do whatever it took to feel better in my body, and to live a life that was worthy of my original essence.
Some of the concepts that I will share with you will feel silly, weird, totally strange, and outlandish, but something will resonate. Something I share with you will hit home, and you will take it and make it your own. Please take what lands, and leave the rest. And if nothing lands, and it you just don’t resonate with it, this might not be the place for you. I bless you, and your journey. No hard feelings whatsoever, but I do encourage you, don’t leave out of resistance. Don’t leave because it doesn’t make logical sense. Try it on, see how it fits, you never know, it might look and feel amazing on you!
So, what were some of the beliefs that got me to this point? Well…
I believe that we’re on this great journey together uncovering the beliefs, stories, and ways of being that no longer serves, and by doing so will bring us back to our original essence.
I believe that it is nobody's responsibility to heal you. It is your own. You must show up, do the work, and stay committed.
I believe that healing happens in the body. This is an in and down job. It must happen in the body I believe that connecting to your sexuality, your orgasm, your pussy provides space for you to connect to your life force, the very thing that keeps us alive.
I believe that healing doesn’t have to be long, hard, or painful. It can be a pleasure filled experience that keeps upleveling our life and way of being.
I believe that you are the healer.
I believe your body is sacred and a direct connection to the Divine.
I believe that love is the healer of all things, you cannot fully heal without it.
My story is your story. It is every woman’s story who has desired more for herself, more for her life, but did nothing because she was too afraid to say yes to herself, and yes to her life.
I am here to tell you that you can say yes! You can do it today, tomorrow, a month from now, even a year from now! One day you will heed the call, and when you do, I’ll be here for you my love, cheering you on every step of the way.
Are you ready?